Is There More To Life?

Is There More To Life?

Let me tell you a story

A story about this life

About all the worries that we have 

And all about the strife

It seems a constant struggle

A fight till the bitter end

Maybe the only ones who make it worth while

Could be a child, family or a friend

Trying your best to survive this world

And frustrated like so many before

Living on minimum wage

Sometimes I think there has just got to be more

Cats and dogs and people too

All living on the street

Looking for a warm place to rest 

Or searching for food to eat

And someone else is stuck in a dead end job

Never getting the raise so needed

Not looking for a handout

But his son's cancer needs to be treated

I think it's messed up that no matter how sick you are

Whether cancer, cold, or the flu

If you don't have the money for medicine

Then no one has time for you

My faith in humanity just about gone

With all that's wrong today

Yet I'll put my hands together

For those less fortunate

And God will hear my pray

by Paula Renier

One Door Closes and Another Opens

One Door Closes and Another Opens

Every day that passes

I think about my life

Blessed with two beautiful children

But not yet made a wife

And I have the most amazing man

Who could ask for more

But being gifted with my unborn baby

God opened up that door

Going through the baby blues

And looking for a cure

I thought it was to have a baby

But getting pregnant made me sure

And then just as quickly

It was taken away

Now I'm supposed to go on with my life

And just take it day to day

They say that you are given 

Only what you can handle

But when I lost that part of me

It was like blowing out a candle 

I know I wasn't far along 

And that it happened at a good time

But it doesn't stop the pain inside

And I sometimes lie awake at night crying

In my heart I know

Maybe this one wasn't meant to be

So here I am trying to move on

But not giving up on three

by Paula Renier

My Unborn Child

My Unborn Child

To my dearest Baby Ridgley

Whom I may never get to see

They tell me that your heart beat's too slow

God, please tell me how this can be

Will you be able to hold on

So I can cradle you in my arms

I wonder if you would have my hazel eyes

And your daddy's southern charms

Maybe you'll get your sister's strong will to lead

And your brother's loving heart

Or maybe you'll get your grandma's caring soul

And all of our love for art

But no matter what is meant to be 

I just want you to know

I understand if you can't hold on

And you feel you have to let go

You will always be in my heart

It is a mothers vow

And when my time comes we'll meet in heaven 

Or maybe nine months from now

by Paula Renier

Dear God

Dear God

Dear God,

I know you hear my prayers

And you will do what you must do 

Even if you take my unborn baby

I am still thankful to you

I have been blessed with two beautiful children

And a man that I adore

I have great friends and family

And you've also given me so much more

I guess I understand

Maybe this was meant to be

But as you know I'm stubborn

And I won't give up easily

This will eventually give me strength I never knew I could have

Even though it hurts right now

To try again after I heal

That is my solemn vow

by Paula Renier

A Monster Within

A Monster Within

I hate myself for hating you

But these feelings so strong what can I do

This isn't who I want to be

But the hate boiling over, I can't seem to set it free

It has no soul and eyes as black as the night sky

It tells you what you want to hear, even if it's a lie

A monster within without as much as a heart

I would like to just tear this monster apart

But I know it's not worth it to lose who I am

So I will just walk away and never look back again

by Paula Renier

Warrior

Warrior

I've heard the key to happiness is a smile away

But believing this get harder every day

You've fallen hard, it was love at first sight

But he is not ready and now it's those feelings you fight

I don't know if it's worse to see the pain in your eyes

Or when you can't take anymore and I hear your cries

As a friend, you should know, I will always be here for you

And as your daughter, here's a should to catch your tears too

You've always been a strong woman and I know

From this you'll bounce back and again you strength will grow

by Paula Renier

Low Man on the Totem Pole

Low Man on the Totem Pole

Always told the lie that we have the right

To stand for our freedom, that freedom for which we fight

Yet here we are, all prisoners in this place

Working so hard to pay our bills and still losing the race

Forced to do things we don't want to do

Supposedly to keep all Americans self righteous and true

I would like to believe that people still care

I just don't see that heart we had is still there

Because if you stand for what you believe in you get fined or even locked in a cell

That fine you can't pay because this economy fell

It's sad to know what has come of this world

Wishing I could change it all but I'm only one girl

by Paula Renier