Ode To Who?

Ode To Who?

I'm so confused

How should I feel?

I really like you

But is this real?

Am I ready to test 

This so called fate?

I can't believe in love

And don't believe in hate.

Crushed till nothing's left

And completely torn apart,

This is what happened 

When I gave away my heart.

Brick after brick,

Rebuilding the wall that fell.

To protect what I have left.

My heart a prisoner in a cell.

Now my walls are up,

Here's a rope for you.

If you think you care, start climbing.

Because your never breaking through.

Paula Renier

It's Me

It's Me

I cry to sleep

Almost every night

In my heart

I feel something's not right

To you I say

Whomever you are

Carry me away

Some place very far

I have not found you

Although I've tried

Now I give up

My heart has died

My heart's been broken

Too many times before

Now only my kids

I shall forever adore

I see that I'm ugly

I know that I'm fat

But I also know

There's more to me than that

I'm a very good person

And a damn good friend

So it's not what you look like

That counts in the end

I really don't care 

If you don't agree

It's your loss, not mine

If that's not what you see

by Paula Renier

Hurt

Hurt

I am always thinking

Of how it would be

If only you would

Be there for me

You always ignore me

And make me feel bad

It hurts me so much

And makes me feel sad

I try to tell you

How much I miss you

But like a child

You don't listen to

Anything I say

Goes through one ear and out the other

I tell you how I feel

You just stare at me and mutter

You'll never understand 

The pain you've caused me

There is a lot more to me

Than what you see

And you'll never know 

Just what you've lost

But unfortunately it's me

Who's paying the cost

by Paula Renier